End?
What if there was a time and place when everything came to an end? And what if that time and place was tomorrow (24 hours from now)? How would you feel? What would you be thinking? Are you happy with what you have done with your life to this point? Is there anything that you wished that you had changed or would have done differently - if you had a second chance? What would you do? That's the big question.
End of time
I look back on the life I have lived till now and can't think of anything that I would change or do anything differently. I am quite content with the way my life has shaped up to this point. I have been through a fair few trials and tribulations - more than you can imagine that I might have gone through, but I have also had really memorable experiences. I have made a fair few mistakes - some small, some big but learnt from each of them. I have loved and have been loved. I have hated and have been hated. I have cried and I have screamed in agony. I have judged and I have been judged. I have laughed and enjoyed moments with lots of different people. I have discriminated and I have been discriminated against. I have had friends in whose hands I can trust my life with and who have done selfless acts towards me - some which I can never repay. I have had the good fortune of having parents who love me very much and have supported me in everything that I have done and whom I love back equally. There is still a lot of pain that I have - a little for myself and a lot for my family. I wish that I could make life easy for my parents - who have sacrificed a lot of things, so I could have a better life. But it is something which will resolve itself in the future - a future that no one can control, so no point wanting to change the future. So yeah there is nothing that I would change to where I am today and there is nothing that I would have done anything differently but I probably don't want to relive my life again either.
If everything was to end tomorrow - I would then most definitely say my final goodbyes over the phone (if the phone systems haven't crashed by then)- first to my close friends and then finally to my family. After that I would try and do a selfless act - maybe let a homeless person sleep in the warmth of our home or anything which feels selfless at that point. I would cook myself a dish which I really love and then share it with whoever is with me at that point and then I would then go to the nearest beach and lie there - admiring the nature till the end of time.
What about you? Are you just gonna read this or would you be brave enough to share your feelings and thoughts? Or are you just a reader, who finds safety in the anonymity? You might not even know me and I might not know you but I would love to hear your thoughts.
Amit
Labels: Introspection
posted by Amit @ 8:35 PM
2 Comments:
Regrets? Sure. Wish I could change things? Maybe, but I've had to overcome so many health issues in the past 20 years that I never long to go back in time for any reason, good or bad, because it would only mean having to re-experience and overcome those health challenges again.
Once is enough for me.
If it were the end, first I'd make peace with God, I'd tell my family just how much I love them, then I would spend every second left with my wife and kids.
I spent some time thinking about if the volcanoes erupted around Aucklaqnd, How I would react. I also would like to be at the beach and enjoy the last good view. If in the city, I'd probably try to get up the sky tower for the panaramic view of the end of things.
I don't know if I'd call my family or friends. I don't think I'd know what to say to them. Goodbye? Seems ludicrous... Hopefully they know from my lifelong actions that I love them and wish them well. But I never liked goodbyes. They always make me feel sad and I think I would want to feel happy at the end.
I'd want to be a spectator to life's granduer to the last second and marvel in it all. It'd be nice to have a friend with me or someone I loved in a moment like this. But I don't think I'd want to talk... I don't think I'd feel cheated. I've gotten alot of enjoyment out of life. If it's time to move on to the hereafter then I would want to accept that and not fight it.
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